I ache.

August 27th, 2013 Tuesday 9.39pm

I ache to be able to express, to put to words, to share this feeling… no, it goes beyond the word Feeling, into a World foreign, yet completely, absolutely recognizable.
Where you and I are beyond the constraints of Love.

Where I am beyond ever needing to be fulfilled. For I have no needs.
You are my Yesterday, Today, and Tomorrow all combined to create Now. You have become my Eternal Now, without reason or necessity, simply Being.
It frightens me to realize how closely God dwells, as Itself, as Us, as You, as Me. Even within my surrender, I am feeling the peeling apart, my self from my Self as All.
I fall effortlessly, kicking and screaming…

You are no longer the Child I discovered …

August 27th, 2013 Tuesday 9.20pm

You are no longer the Child I discovered, abandoned by himself, lonely, afraid, unsure, cowering within the safety of the stillness of your Blue Eyes.

Halls, mazes, corridors of Forever within these depths of Blue, so Blue. The depths of Oceanic mysteries brought forth, to be shared with me.

You enchanted me, my Love. You carried me away on the Magic Carpet of your Breath. How I laid myself so willingly upon your Altar. Giving no resistance, no hesitation. I was yours within seconds of sensing you.

And now I watch you, adoringly, joy swelling within me, filling out the contours of my own Beauty. For it is no secret, Your Love has watched over me like a benevolent Sun.

Nurturing me, guiding me, coaxing, cajoling, encouraging, but always, always, always Loving, Adoring ~~~ Me.

Gazing back at you I see, I was the Child abandoned by herself, lonely, afraid, unsure, cowering within the safety of the stillness of your Blue Eyes.

I am bewildered

August 27th, 2013 Tuesday 9pm

I am bewildered, for in reaching for You, I find myself embracing a Stranger. You seem to dissipate, to disappear into a place of yearning ~~~yet I know, I recognize this place.

It is as if I awaken within this embrace to find myself wandering in my Dreams and Desires which now pale in comparison to a Knowing that is growing stronger, even as your Being grows weaker.

My Love for You has become a Portal, a Passageway to something far more extraordinary than You, or Your Kiss.

I balk, I hesitate, I don’t want to give up our Trysts, our times together. But it seems I have chosen. For by loving You, by committing myself to this Deliciousness, I will be leaving it all behind.

I want the longing for you back, but it’s growing of Itself. A Life of its own it will have, feeding on the Glory of Our Passion…